What happens after "No Deal"?
AU for the middle of the episode
It was around the time when he started seeing double that he almost wondered why the bartender hadn’t stopped him. Well . . . tried to stop him. Not that it would work. Maybe the barkeep didn’t notice? Granted, Dean never allowed himself to be fall down drunk. He just got quieter than his usual loquacious self (sarcasm, of course). When Dean got into ‘train of thought hinkyness’ level of drunk then he was solemn, silent and solitary. You couldn’t tell he was drunk and when he sought out that level of inebriation his drink of choice was Vodka. Tasteless, odorless and clear. Vacant. Like water. Like holy water, cleansing and pure and then like bleach, fighting to erase his memories like bloodstains.
‘Cept bleach didn’t work when the stain was on too long and Dean’s memories were hitting over twenty years. Bleach wouldn’t help that kind of stain. The best you could do was start over with a new shirt and all he wanted was a new life.
( Bleach )